Random Ramblings

I don't know that I have anything really eventful to post today, but it is Sunday night and I just wanted to get some thoughts out of my head and on to paper (so to speak.) Dave is looking over the many different carrer choices that he has to decide on going into the MBA program, it is quite the process trying to pick one thing that you will potentially do for the rest of your life, he is going back and forth, will I like this? Will it make enough income to support the family? You know, all that "dad stuff". I wish I could shoulder more of the burden for him, I can act as a sounding board when the kids aren't screaming or needing too much of my attention, but mostly it is up to him. All I really care about is that he is happy and it is a stable company, we already went thorugh the roller coaster ride with an ever changing company...that is for another post!
I am realizing that we are at one of the many precipices in our lives, we have to decide where we are going, I am gripping that everyday is not so normal anymore, we are going to recruiting meetings with some of the big 4 accounting firms, internships for the summer need to be sought for in the next month. I am feeling that we just started this journey called MBA school, and now we are forced to decide NOW what we are going to do.
In the mean time, I am working to supplement our income. This past week I calculated and between my 4 jobs I worked just over 20 hours, no wonder I am so tired and my house is a mess and there are piles of laundry waiting to be folded! I am so grateful for all of my families help, they are good to watch the kids for bits of time so I can work. But this week in house cleaning, a vacuum fell down the stairs as I was vacuuming and hit my back, it hurt, and then the next day I had a double wedding to set up. It was so tiring moving 2 trailers full of wedding decor and setting up, oh my! I really prayed for strength that day! Dave did give me a good back rub.
I am learning to never say the word never, it always comes back to get me. I never wanted to be in Relief Society, it was equated with death, there is no where to go after RS. You start in Primary work your way up and then there is no where but the end, called death. So I NEVER wanted to go, then I get to Ricks College as a Freshman and my first Sunday there they call me to be in the RS Presidency! I asked them if they got me mixed up with another Michelle Brown? Then I am awaiting my mission call, I didn't want to go to North Carolina, I had a roommate that, well, let's just say we were on opposite sides of the spectrum., when we were blasting music and jumping on the couches, my mom wasn't there to tell me otherwise, but here mom was ALWAYS there in spirit! She just got her call there and I didn't want to go there! So where did I get called?!? NC! So last week we get called into the Bishops office, I really never want to be in the nursery, not that I don't love kids, but that is currently my life and I so look forward to church as a break and for adult interaction and spiritually stimulating discussions, well guess where Dave and I got called? THE NURSERY. It was all I could do to hold back tears. I have come to terms with it, I think it is what I have been praying for, just not the way I thought my answer to prayer would have come. It will be a good way to meet parents with kids Hailey's age, possibly make some friends in this neighborhood that are closer to our age.
Today in church we got read in. I knew this was coming today and was preparing for it as soon as we sat down in Sacrament meeting, getting Hailey her snack and making sure Preston was fed, changed and happy.....They have you stand and as we stood Preston started to get fussy,Hailey started screaming; "I'm poopy! I'm poopy!" Oh great, so now we are the poopy Jamison family, we will go down in history as that thanks to my cute little girl (whom we took out and changed, she wasn't poopy.) The member of the Bishopric that read us in didn't realize that we had 2 kids, he only read in Hailey so we are kind of having this conversation from the congregation to the pulpit and my kids are making everyone else appreciate that their kids are all grown!
In the mean time, I am just living life day to day, not praying for a motor to row my boat when I have already been given a perfectly good oar. I have a wonderful hubby and 2 beautiful healthy, happy children, really what more could I want? (Okay, there is one thing, all the new fall clothes are coming out and I am dying for a new outfit, but I think I will use the money to buy groceries for my family instead and just dream about how cute that sweater would look! A girl can dream, right?)